by shadow woman
I was up a couple times during the night. All that water has to go somewhere. And, I don’t know If you can relate, but even if he’s a good boy during the day, I HATE going to the bathroom after my husband in the middle of the night.
I wanted to go shopping and get the things I needed – vitamins, yogurt, fruit, etc. I wanted the walker cleared and ready for some heavy duty walking. I wanted to do so much, but didn’t. Stupid! not being prepared for this undertaking has almost sabotaged me from the get-go. But, if I would have said –“Wait, I need to get this and do that” first, I never would have started. Still, I wish I was more prepared.
Wake up. water and walk – This is so hard to do and I so wanted to blow it off the walk. Again, having a buddy worked. I guess I am very susceptible to the guilt factor.
Work Day: So far, so good. But today, lunch wasn’t as satisfying. I don’t think I am getting enough cals at snack time and lunch. But I MUST not ‘make them up’ at night. I don’t feel as draggy as I usual do at this time of day, still doesn’t mean I would turn down a rest cot and a blankie.
My knees aren’t so bad half way through the day, but my hip is another story. But no matter what, I will continue to walk twice a day. It may hurt like hell, but the rest of my body must appreciate it! I’m hoping it will pass. I can’t let it stop me from getting healthy, that is for sure and positive.
And I can’t emphasize the importance of being prepared. I am so hungry now, but all I have to eat is a tomato, a cucumber and some cream cheese. YUMMY – not. They ran out of cottage cheese. AND – my favorite cookies are out today, calling my name. Keep repeating ‘What would I tell Dena?”
It’s 5:30 and I am hungry. I really need to eat more satisfying snacks and lunches. Dena suggested I add a soup to lunch. We’ll try that tomorrow. Or, maybe have it as the afternoon snack. I so want to go and munch on the cookies and wafers they have available here, but no.
Big revelation – Not only is my buddy helping, writing about it reinforces compliance. I guess that’s my personality though, and it’s better to work with it than against it.
Tomorrow – better planning, better food.
Note to self: I just realized something. I am going on a mini-vacation Wednesday and Thursday. I don’t want to lose momentum, but I don’t want to restrict myself too much either. Nothing like getting some alone time with the old man only to have it spoiled by salad and celery sticks. I’ll have to think on this one.
Evening Walk – I just couldn’t do it. All my determination. All my commitment. I physically couldn’t. My knees were ok, I could deal. But my right hip was Agony or some close relative. Thank goodness my husband was able to pick me up tonight. I don’t want to walk anymore. But that’s the problem, isn’t it? It’s a viscous cycle and I must break out.
Dinner – Shwarma in a pita, not a healthy choice day. But we were running late, and dinner wasn’t started, and we needed to do shopping so I could have food tomorrow, and, and, and… I think you know the story. I thought I blew it completely, but to my pleasant surprise, the calorie count on a Shwarma is between 400 – 500 calories without hummus or techina. Since I didn’t either, I was probably OK. But the white flour – not good.
Snack – ¼ cup of trail mix – nuts, raisins, dried apple and banana. Wow. That was way too much. I hope my low count for the day compensates. But I didn’t feel hungry, which would be a deal breaker for me. Also must give myself a pat. I didn’t go back for another ¼ cup.
Bedtime – Blew it again. I watched Olympic Pairs Figure Skating. I don’t live in the same time zone and we taped it for the evening. I hope I wake up on time.
All in all, today was harder than yesterday. Hungrier more often and my physical shape slowed me down. On the up side, I have the food I need to snack properly (no vitamins yet – bad girl) so tomorrow already promises to be better.